In the fight with depression, you are not too alone to give up

After a long abusive and scary live-in relationship with Rohan, Radha finally decided to leave. Unfortunately, she did not leave alone; she realized that she was carrying his twins in her womb. Since she is not married yet, she decided to keep it a secret. 

                                           

She withdrew all the ways to the outer world and locked herself in a small home. Days passed according to the calendar but she was still stuck in the past.

It’s been 15 months, she has not slept properly, did not eat healthy either, and could not talk to anyone. Her children are of 6 months and are damn naughty. They never let her take rest or communicate with people. They mostly stay together, even if not, she knew one will shortly follow the other. Sometimes she wonders if she would have never chosen Rohan, she feels restless, tired, alone, and helpless. Days passed in taking care of her boys. Now she is so used to the children around that she feels incomplete without them but when they are with her, she feels the burden and wishes if she could leave them also like she left Rohan. But this was practically not possible!

They used to eat up all the food and still cry because of hunger, sometimes they hit her hard and torture like hell. As they were growing up, she was losing control over them. She gave them everything she had to engage them at home.

I forgot to tell you the names of her boys. The names are depression and anxiety. She never knew they will start eating her like this. She cannot get rid of them. The kids cry constantly, yell loudly, and try to make her feel guilty of not pampering them. They never let her think of her own. The shame of having these unwanted children is the fact; every one among five people in the world is suffering. They feel weak and suicidal. They don’t want to share that they are having 2 monsters in the form of children. Especially when they know they cannot control them. When the children cry, they need to play music loud so that nobody could hear their voice. They put thick, dark curtains to separate them from society’s eye. They are busy worrying about society judging them for having these kids. They keep an eye on children so that they cannot disturb the living of others. They isolate themselves, wanting to be alone with them.

               

                                     

The children soon take over everything in their life; eat up dreams and hopes, making them feel helpless and unwanted. They take up all their time. People who come over, they push them away because they don’t want anybody to see the real, the pathetic side of them. The pain and shame take control of their life. The things they once enjoyed then become pointless. The children ruin their beautiful houses and they still try to hide them from everyone. They don’t want to trouble anybody and this is exactly why they hide. Lastly, they finish their life to finish their suffering.

Well, Radha too tried to take up her life but luckily she failed. She just wanted to have a day without the kids or when she could control them. 

One clear morning, kissed by the sun, Radha finally decided to keep a nanny to take care of these children. She thought the worst is over. She felt she could sleep now and see dreams again. The nanny (who can be friends, mentors, relatives, doctors, or a perfect stranger) started handling them well. Things are getting better for Radha.

Well, we all have a Radha around us, who is depressed and need to be helped. So please check around and try to be the nanny of her. Trust me; you will be proud of yourself for saving a life